My Fracture Story | Strong Start, Painful Finish

By Zack DeBerry


If you are like me you have many fractures in your story.  I know I have had many moments in my life that I didn’t really understand until I began to focus less on my story and more on God’s bigger story.  That is not an easy thing for me to do.

Comfortable Turned Uncomfortable

This was never more apparent than about 10 years ago.  I was a full-time youth pastor at a small town church and things were going really great.  The youth group was really growing and it seemed that everything was going perfect.  

Then I was confronted about the fact that a lot of the kids that came to our youth gathering didn’t seem to be there on Sunday morning.  I was caught a little off guard because I felt that if they came at all on any day of the week that was a win for connecting the younger generation to church.

This continued for a while and I remember sitting in my office at the church with my head on the desk and thinking “God, how can they not see what You are doing?  I remember feeling in my heart that God was saying, “They may not.”  I know that sounds harsh, but it is just what I was feeling and what I felt God was saying in my heart.

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Message Follow Up | Fracture: Part 3 – Difficult Circumstances

Fracture: Finding Hope in the Pain – Part 3: Difficult Circumstances
David McNeely


By David McNeely


God Permits What He Hates

Steve Estes once told Joni Eareckson Tada, “Joni, sometimes God permits what He hates to accomplish that which He loves.”

I hope that statement sinks into the depths of our souls.  I’m afraid we think God might just sometimes be excited about our pain and suffering.  Perhaps He is a God who only does the “real work” when we are wounded to the core.

Does He roll His eyes when we laugh with our children?  Is He enduring the peaceful stretches of our lives while sadistically planning the excruciating moments when it is difficult to even breathe?

The Bible would say, “No.”  Steve would agree.

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My Fracture Story | The Pain of a Secret Sin

By Don Gentry


It Started Small

I was eleven years old, attending my first Boy Scout overnight camp experience.  My friend & I were up in the woods playing during our free time.  We were on top of a hill underneath a pine tree.  It was there I was very innocently exposed to my first “girlie magazine”.

What I didn’t know at the time was the world of shame and guilt that day was going to usher me into.

With what I know now, I thank God I was raised in an era where we didn’t have the Internet.  From the age of 11 to 21, I had to be very sneaky and intentional if I was going to find any explicit material.  It was during this time of growth and spiritual maturing that I would enter into cycles of temptation, permissive behavior, self-loathing and debasement, purity, promises, and the cycle goes on.

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007 The Journey Online Podcast | A Look Inside the Fracture Series w/ Matt Dawson

The Journey Online Podcast

At Journey, we’re currently in a series called Fracture: Finding Hope in the Pain, which is about better understanding how our personal choices and circumstances effect our stories.  Its been obvious that this series is really reaching a lot of people as everyone has experienced a fracture at some point.

In this episode, Zack DeBerry talks with our lead pastor Matt Dawson about the series in general, what we really mean by “fracture,” as well as whether one can truly find hope in any kind of pain.  

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